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| Aleena watching Uncle Curt run his first half marathon. |
I sit here writing this as I should be working on a midterm paper that's due in a week and a half. Seems like a lot of time but not really...not when I don't have any guaranteed working time and have to take advantage of every opportunity available to me. This past week, I think all of this caught up with me and I ended up taking a sick day. Yes, I am just a wee bit stressed with everything that I've taken on. No, I'm not superwoman..not even close. Actually, typing this reminds me of when I visited my minister when I was in high school. They used to have clergy come into the school to do some counseling for students. Wow, have times ever changed. Imagine the uproar that would cause these days?! (I went to a public school.)
Anyway, back to the story. I remember telling our pastor that I was extremely busy and stressed out and had taken on too much. I really had. I am starting to see a pattern here in my life. I seem incapable of relaxing for very long but at least it does happen from time to time. Ironically, I am often asked about my running as if it's an extra thing I do that stresses me out. The good news is that running doesn't stress me out..it makes me feel better. This is why I am somewhat unhappy right now as I've got a nagging injury that I am making myself finally listen to. It's time to rest now that my half marathon is over before I cause any permanent damage.
I realized the other day that I may have an addiction to being busy because I've stopped telling people everything I've taken on. I'm actually embarrassed to admit it. For example, how many people know I have helped coach cross country running at school this year? I doubt anyone knew until I got sick and couldn't take the kids to a meet thereby canceling the event for our school. Gotta love how the one extracurricular/volunteer aspect of my job made me feel the most guilty about going home sick. And how many people know that I'm now a school rep for the RPSTA (RPS Teachers Association)? I figure that if I don't like how some things are going in education right now, it's better to take action than complain. This is my way of getting involved.
Of course, there's also my Masters class and it mostly just stresses me out because I am never sure when I'll have the time to work on the readings and assignments. More good news though. I enjoy taking my Masters as odd as that may sound. It's so relevant to my teaching and I find it fascinating. For example, I have 15 stories to correct next week and I am going to write a paper comparing a couple journal articles on giving written feedback for ESL students' writing. I find it fascinating to learn what the research in the field is. When you read a text or teaching guide, you get one perspective. When you read a bunch of journal articles, you learn many sides of the story and get a broader perspective on a topic.
Of course, between all of this craziness, there are my two lovely children with contagious smiles. They keep me smiling too. They also remind me about what's really important everyday and that helps keep perspective on everything else.